Sometimes, I want to learn how to love someone again. I think everyone should experience that feeling. I want to learn, but if I force myself out of will to learn to love someone again, my feelings aren’t genuine because it’s forced. I just wonder when that time will come again, but how can I learn to love someone else when I don’t love myself enough? I really don’t love myself enough and here I am talking about how I want to learn to love someone else again. How silly and naive of me.
There are like no possibilities of dating here. My area is full of couples and people that just don’t like me lol. I won’t be dating anyone anytime soon~
I am a pathetic excuse for a human being.
When we’re young, we’re taught prince charming is easy to find. That the bad guy is easy to see, and walks around in a black cape. We spent all our time playing with barbies and dreaming of things that wouldn’t make sense if we told you. But we were always told we could make our dreams come true.
As we get older, we learn prince charming isn’t so easy to find. The bad guy is usually right around the corner, right under our nose. Instead of playing with barbies, we start trying to look like one and become full of jealousy, resentment. We feel like victims of the world.
We feel as if we don’t belong here, as if the world is crushing us with reality. Reality of the fact, that no matter what we do, our dreams are always out of reach.
We want to scream at the top of our lungs, but we’re afraid no one will listen.
Isn’t it ironic? The things we loved and dreamed of in the past turn out to be our nightmares in the future?
I could re-write the same words to someone over and over but it’d end up being deleted. I could want to say so many things to someone, but I could never go there. I just can’t bring myself to press “send” I could never bring myself to show people how pathetic and sad I really am. I just can’t. I am an ungrateful person. I am truly sorry.
